Late Check In (California Crush Book 4) by Mia Monroe

Author:Mia Monroe [Monroe, Mia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2022-09-07T16:00:00+00:00

When I enter the hotel the next morning, my mood is trash. I slept like shit, and while I should be excited to see Gio again, I’m afraid I fucked up with my decision not to see him yesterday. What if he really thought about dating a guy like me who’s afraid of kids and has no future plans? What if he decides I’m just not worth it? What if…I’m just a way for him to explore sex with men and nothing more? Why the fuck do I want something more?

While I’m having an existential crisis, I nearly walk right into London.

“Whoa, my dude. Why the face?”

Shaking my head, I try to move, but he grabs my arm. “It’s nothing, London.”

“It’s gotta be something. This bummer aura around you is not your vibe at all. Are you okay?”

“Mostly. Kind of.” I shake my head. “Not really.”

London leads me into the yoga room, closing the door. “What’s going on? I’m a good listener.”

Realizing I could actually use a friend, I slump against the wall and open up. “Years ago, I fell in love for the first and only time.”

London nods, watching me with concerned eyes.

“I assumed it was love. I craved his attention and wanted to be with him day and night. I didn’t even hook up or go on dates. I just wanted to be with him.” I glance out the windows then back at London. “He was my professor. I became his teaching assistant, and my feelings only intensified. After the semester finished and I graduated, I asked him out, but he was married.”

“Oof.”

“Yeah, and straight, or so we both thought. He’s since divorced and realized he’s not straight.”

“Okay. Awesome,” he says carefully.

“He’s the guest I've been hanging out with the last few days. Everything has been really cool until the day before yesterday. We went to his house and his kids and ex showed up. He’s not out to them, so it was super awkward.”

“What happened?”

“I told him it was fine, and I would never pressure him to come out, but that isn’t the part that’s bothering me.”

“What is?”

“What the fuck do I know about kids? I’ve never in my life considered having them or dating someone who has them. Most days I still feel like an unsupervised kid. What if…” I exhale. “What if Gio decides I’m not the right guy for him?”

“Wouldn’t that be better than spending time with the wrong person?”

“He’s not the wrong person for me. It took me years to stop wanting him and thinking about him every day. I didn’t go about it in a healthy way either. I drank, partied, and slept around. I don’t know if I can handle that again.”

“I get it.”

“But then, what if he thinks I am the right guy? His kids could hate me and his ex could be a jerk. I could find out that being with a dad doesn’t work for me. Or he could realize he should’ve waited for someone more mature.”

London smiles. “I’m actually the right guy for this talk.

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